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Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Tempest Downpour Why Women Want Yaoi

Tempest Downpour Why Women Want Yaoi


yaoi

Posted on Apr 23 2010


Why Women Want Yaoi:


Where Tempest answers the age-old question of why women like yaoi, and offends everyone.


Yaoi, shounen-ai, boys love, slash – it goes by many names, but one theme: boys who fall in love with each other for a predominantly-female fanbase. (For simplicity sake I will refer to it as yaoi.) Yaoi fans swarm more than just anime conventions and can be found wherever fanfictions live. They hail from every country, making it far beyond just a cultural phenomenon.


But why do women like this stuff? People have attempted to answer the question via everything from serious scientific studies to 3 A.M. answers on Yahoo Questions. Here are a few of the answers supplied:


1)It’s surreal.


2)Two pretty people are better than one.


3)Idealized romance.


4)No women to compare yourself to.


5)It can be aggressive.


6)The same reason men like yuri.


Yaoi isn’t exactly your mom’s anime. If it is, that’s creepy . In yaoi, all the men tend to be absolutely, breathtakingly gorgeous. Especially in older programs, the male characters look almost like women and often crossdress (Patarillo!). Romantic scenes are sometimes displayed in wild technicolor (Kaze to Ki no Uta) and tend to involve themes that straight women never experience (“But I’m a guy. How can he love me?”).


Now take that and times it by two. Spectacle is certainly a part of the yaoi experience, as any active fanart follower should know. It’s rare to visit an art gallery without seeing at least a few decidedly straight male characters staring longingly into each other’s eyes. And the sparkles. But if that were the case, women would be attracted to regular heterosexual pairings that are just super-prettified.


Women, as a generalization, tend to like drama in their romances . That’s why chick flicks always have some earth-shattering moment where the two lovers seem like they absolutely cannot be together. And what better odds are their in pulling apart a relationship than public scrutiny and parental disapproval? (“I can’t hold his hand in public – people will watch!”) Then there’s a conflict, which gets resolved when the one character declares his undying love to the other in an intense scene scattered with rose petals and shojo bubbles.


That’s still not getting to the point though . The characters may be pretty and may declare their love for each other every five minutes, but any harem anime has those features as well. Why is it different when it’s two men?


Lillian Diaz-Przybl, Senior Editor of Tokyopop . said in an article that women tend to associate themselves with the female protagonists in stories, and insert themselves into the protagonists situations [1]. My problem in associating with the female protagonist is that I tend to find her decisions completely inept – especially in regards to romance. Taking away that female component removes the desire to put oneself in the protagonists shoes, and allows women to sit back and enjoy the story.


But perhaps one of the telling reasons is that many women enjoy aggressive love stories [2]. However, the aggressor is typically male and is typically seen as abusive towards the submissive female. In the modern era, this is seen as something entirely negative and is one of the reasons most women take self-defense courses [3]. Change the submissive character to male, and suddenly it isn’t a bad thing anymore!


It’s amazing that I found so many articles devoted to why women like yaoi . and none about why men like yuri. It’s just culturally acceptable for men to think two women together are attractive, while it is mind-boggling for women to feel the same way about the opposite gender.


No, yaoi fans and yuri fans aren’t the same thing . In yuri that caters to men, often times the women look to the screen as if beseeching the viewer to join them. Meanwhile, yaoi has the two main characters stare into each other’s eyes (for longer than should be considered healthy). Yuri doesn’t always have an involved storyline while yaoi can have some very strange circumstances, but always tries to involve some intentionally heart-wrenching plot. Many women claim to like yaoi for its “liberating experience” while men often watch yuri for the spectacle.


Your turn, folks . agree, disagree, prove me wrong. It’s your call! Leave a comment or discuss it in the IRC.


[1] Japanese Comics With Gay Themes Attracting Young Female Readers by Stephen Totilo


[2] Yaoi 101: Girls Love “Boys’ Love” by Cathy Camper


[3] Educational – A Theory on Why Women Like Yaoi by Yaoi Press

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Why My Team Went With DynamoDB Over MongoDB

Why My Team Went With DynamoDB Over MongoDB


Ain’t no headache like a database-related headache.


My team and I were hired by a non-profit organization to build a highly customized content system, one that would allow the client to store tens of thousands of articles in the cloud and publish them to the Web. Although the organization was small, with only a few employees, their Website received a good amount of traffic from a niche group of scientists and researchers. In the course of development, we faced a key question: which database to use? We eventually narrowed it down to two very different ones: MongoDB and Amazon’s DynamoDB.


MongoDB is a database engine, whereas DynamoDB is a hosted NoSQL system distributed among Amazon’s servers. So on some levels, the comparison is almost like comparing apples and oranges. One isn’t necessarily better than the other. But for our purposes, and very possibly yours, one did prove more suited than the other.


(One quick note before we plunge into this: I don’t have room to publish the entire specifications here. Although you’re only getting a partial picture, I’ll do my best to walk you through the situation and the conclusions reached by our team.)


The articles meant for the database had a large set of metadata attached to them, including abstracts, information about the article’s publisher, biographies, etc. One thing to note is that few authors wrote more than one article, and the articles came from a huge range of publishers. In other words, it was clear that this type of project would be well suited for a document-oriented NoSQL database.


Even though our team specializes in MongoDB (and initially considered using CouchDB), we ended up using Amazon’s DynamoDB to complete the task. Here are the steps that led to the decision:


Some Thoughts About the Data


Each database article included a set of fields that normally lend themselves well to a traditional RDBMS, such as MySQL or Oracle. Among them:


The article’s title


The article’s text


An abstract spanning several paragraphs


The publication date


The name of the publisher


A unique ID used in the industry


However, the articles also contained data less suited to a traditional database. For example, each article could have multiple authors, so there were actually more authors than there were articles. Every article also needed a list of keywords associated with it, as well as a selection from a set of predefined categories; on rare occasions, the publisher wanted additional information attached to the article, such as a custom survey or contact information.


Although data like this could be put in a relational database, it doesn’t fit well. Using normalization rules, we could create a separate table to hold the authors and their biographies, and then another table for joining the articles to authors. For normalized databases, this is often considered a best practice, although another option would be to store multiple author IDs in the article tables—something that would require extra fields, since most articles had more than one author. That would also require that we anticipate the maximum of author fields needed, which could lead to problems down the road.


In the relational database world, it’s better to use an extra table joining articles to authors, with one author per row. Categories and keywords present a similar situation.


With regard to data structures in the code itself, we have an Article class with top-level fields for different items such as the title and text; inside the Article object, there are arrays containing the author information, categories, and keywords. In Java or C#, it would look more-or-less like this:


class Article


public String title;


public String text;


public String abstract;


public Author[] authors;


public string[] Categories;


public string[] Keywords;


This is where the NoSQL concept fits well; instead of dividing up the data into multiple tables, and then doing joins to pull in an individual article, we can just put the whole thing as-is into the table. In the non-relational, MongoDB world, a table is called a collection, and the items in the collections are similar to JavaScript or JSON objects, and can hold complex data structures that include arrays and embedded classes.


"general relativity",


"quantum mechanics"


This entire document gets stored as-is right in the collection. The _id field is generated by MongoDB and is unique to each document in the entire database. Additionally, you can create indexes on any field, including the fields buried down inside an array or inner object, such as authors.name.


A Very Brief Note Regarding Searching


Our client said they didn’t need a full-text search on the text or abstract of the documents; they only cared about people searching keywords and categories. That’s fine—we could always add further search capabilities later on, using third-party indexing and searching tools such as Apache Lucene.


More Requirements


As we did more analysis, the project specs began to grow, and so did the requirements. The client was a small organization with only six employees and a tight budget. They didn’t want to purchase servers, and they didn’t want to hire someone to manage hosted servers. After discussing the situation with them, we decided a cloud-based system would work best for them, especially one that required minimum management.


One option was paying for a hosted MongoDB service. Various companies offer different pricing plans, and some are quite low. But the low plans are often shared plans, where your data is stored on a server alongside other clients. Our client wasn’t happy about that, even though it probably wouldn’t have presented a problem. These hosting companies also offered “dedicated” plans, but they were very expensive and more than our client wanted to pay per month. Digging a bit deeper, we found these dedicated plans amounted to the hosting company allocating an Amazon EC2 instance and running MongoDB on it, and managing it for you. You would be paying for that server plus the management company’s services. And some of the servers on Amazon can get pretty expensive.


As an alternative, we could skip the hosting companies and allocate a couple of servers ourselves on Amazon, following best practices and putting them in different zones (which meant separate physical locations). Then we could install MongoDB and set up the replication ourselves. But again, the client didn’t really want to pay for that, because the cost of those servers would add up, and they would have to pay additional money to us for the work. Their budget was limited.


That’s when we started looking at different options. We wanted fast access through the cloud and replication. What about some of Amazon’s storage systems? Amazon has their S3 storage, but that’s more suited to blob data—not ideal for documents. More suited to document data is one of Amazon’s newer products called DynamoDB. (I say “newer,” but it’s actually an extension of a product they’ve used in-house for a number of years.) It’s a NoSQL and can hold any type of data we want. We decided to do some tests and see if it would work for us.


Amazon DynamoDB’s Structure


In DynamoDB, you can store documents with a flexible structure just as in other NoSQL databases. There’s just one shortcoming: you can’t have embedded data structures like you can with MongoDB. This might be a problem. But before ditching it right away, we looked at some of the other features.


For one, DynamoDB uses a different kind of indexing and key system than MongoDB; you can design your tables with either one field for an index, or two fields. The first field is called the hash, and the second field is called a range.


The reason for calling the first field a hash is because it’s used for that purpose. In computer science, a hash can be used in a map structure to help you quickly find a data item, and also to distribute the items evenly throughout a storage area. That’s how the hash works here, as well. By properly designing a hash, your data will be distributed throughout the allocated storage. Ideally you won’t have what Amazon calls “hot spots,” where the majority of your data access comes from one area.


For example, if you’re storing data about Amazon products, and the products of a single category are grouped close together, and the majority of lookups are for a particular category, then the area where that category is stored would become a hot spot. It’s better to distribute the products to avoid hot spots; access tends to be uniformly distributed, as well.


The second key is called the range, because it gives you a way to keep a sort on the items within a single hash, as well as keep the items close together physically (beneficial for quick loopup, once the hash is used to locate the records).


While all this sounds great, what about indexes beyond these two key fields? We want to be able to search authors, keywords, and categories. After going through the documentation and consulting with some DynamoDB experts, we discovered that there’s no way around it: If you want custom indexes, you have to build them yourself and put them in separate tables.


We weren’t thrilled about this, because writing your own indexes can be problematic. Any time we stored a document, we would have to update the index. That’s fine, except if anything goes wrong in between those two steps, the index would be wrong. However, the coding wouldn’t be too terribly difficult, and so we decided this wouldn’t be a showstopper. But just to be sure, we would need to follow best practices, and include code that periodically rebuilds the indexes.


To generate the keyword index, we would have to scan through the article table, pull in the keywords, and add rows to the keyword index. The hash key in the keyword index would be the keyword itself, and the range key would be the article ID. Easy enough. The index tables for the categories and authors would be similar.


Writing and maintaining our indexes felt like a huge step backwards, something we haven’t had to do for the last 20 years. But we did it, and the code wasn’t hard, and it worked well.


But there was still a further problem. The rows in the tables require a flat structure, a simple name:value type field. That would work for the top-level fields such as Title and Abstract, but not for the authors. However, unlike a traditional relational database, the schema is flexible. That means we could actually flatten out our data structure and store multiple categories, keywords, and author information. So a sample structure in JSON might look like this:


“title”. “Some title”,


“text”. “Here’s the article’s text”,


“abstract”. “This article is about…”,


“author_name_1″. “George Washington”,


“author_employer_1″. “Some university”,


“author_bio_1″. “Born on…”,


“author_employer_1″. “Another university”,


“author_bio_1″. “After working at such and such…”,


“category_1″. “Theoretical Physics”,


“category_2″. “News”,


“keywords_1″. “relativity”,


“keywords_2″. “general relativity”,


“keywords_3″. “quantum mechanics”


This would work okay, and seems to be the Amazon-recommended way. But I wasn’t too excited about it, because pulling it into our classes in the code wouldn’t work very well. We would have to climb through it and piece together the objects. Again, not terribly difficult, but it seemed like a step in the wrong direction.


One of the guys on the team came up with an interesting option. The idea was this: keep the entire structure with the arrays and inner objects, serialize it to a string containing the JSON, and then store that JSON in a single field. Additionally, for fields we needed to access often, such as title and abstract, include extra fields containing those as well. Thus, the non-index fields would look like this:


title: “Some Title”,


categories:”Theoretical Physics,News”,


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authornames: “George Washington,Albert Einstein”,


keywords: “relativity,general relativity,quantum mechanics”,


json: “


When we needed to retrieve the article, we could just grab the JSON and then un-serialize it directly into an object. (The Amazon DynamoDB library we used allowed for this with a single line of code, and DynamoDB only sends down the fields requested.) Whenever we needed to rebuild our indexes, we could scan the table and pull down just the categories field, split it in our code into individual categories, and build the table. Ultimately, this approach worked. (And as an additional note, we also ended up compressing the JSON string to save a lot of space.)


That compression proved to be important due to yet another shortcoming of DynamoDB, one that nearly made me pull my hair out and encourage the team to switch back to MongoDB. It turns out the maximum record size in DynamoDB is 64K. That’s not much, and it takes me back to the days of 16-bit Windows where the text field GUI element could only hold a maximum of 64K. That was also, um, twenty years ago.


By compressing the data, we increased how much we could fit. After going through the documents, that turned out to be enough. However, in the future if it doesn’t work, we have some additional options that Amazon recommends, none of which sound particularly exciting to implement:


1. Break the record up into multiple records . To read the data, read all the records making up the larger record, and pull them back together. This wouldn’t be impossible, because we actually could use the range key for this.


2. Store the data itself in Amazon S3. In the DynamoDB record, simply store the identifier for the S3 object. That doesn’t sound like much fun, but it would be doable.


So there’s a workaround. Nonetheless, I was getting extremely frustrated, because the amount of code we were having to write to support DynamoDB was far more than the amount of code to support MongoDB.


DynamoDB’s Pricing


DynamoDB pricing ultimately proved excellent for our client. That being said, Amazon’s pricing strategy is bizarre and their documentation isn’t written very well: when you set up a table in DynamoDB, you specify how much read and write throughput you’ll need per second . That, combined with how much data you store, will be how much you pay at the end of the month.


Regardless of whether you actually use that much read and write throughput, you still pay for it. Think of your mobile phone; it’s the same idea. You pick how many minutes and messages you’ll need, and that’s what you pay, even if you don’t reach those minutes and messages. With DynamoDB, you pick (and pay for) how much read and write you’ll need.


This is an important note for developers doing tests: It’s very easy to create a dozen or so tables in DynamoDB using their web interface. But those tables sitting there are being applied to your final bill, even if you don’t actually put data in them . One guy on our team created a couple test tables before understanding the billing, and the tables just sat there unused for a month. At the end of the month we ended up paying a little bit for them. (It was only about $5, but money is money.)


When we were setting up the tables, one guy on the team saw Amazon’s question about how much read and write we’d be doing. He said, “How should I know?” True. It’s hard to get an exact idea. But it really is possible to come up with a ballpark estimate; test it out for a few days, and adjust accordingly. The Web control panel that Amazon provides graphs that let you see exactly how much throughput you’re using.


When you go over the throughput, you get throttled, but it’s easy to increase the throughput from the control panel. We were told by one person that if we went beyond the throughput, we would get a 404 error when accessing the data, but fortunately we didn’t find that to be the case; we didn’t want to have our articles not coming back during times of high load. Instead we’d rather see it slow down and at least function. Amazon lets you set up alarms so we could be notified of the situation, log in, and bump up the throughput.


There was one more caveat with the pricing. DynamoDB includes auto-replication, which was important to us. But there was an option regarding consistency. Typically, consistency is a matter of about one second; when you upload your data, it won’t be immediately available to the different servers where it will be stored. But you can turn on a stronger consistency where it gets updated almost immediately, such as tenths of milliseconds. But as our client was storing articles and not super-time-sensitive financial data, consistency really wasn’t an issue in this case.


In the End


Amazon says they store the DynamoDB in fast solid-state drives, which keeps speeds fast.


Our client is paying less than $100 per month for the data. Yes, there are MongoDB hosting options for less than this; but as I mentioned earlier, those tend to be shared options where your data is hosted alongside other data. (Our client wasn’t too keen on that.) So for their particular needs, DynamoDB seemed to be a good fit. And although I’m not thrilled about the additional work we had to do (at times it felt like going back two decades in technology by writing indexes ourselves), we did end up with some nice reusable code to help us with the serialization and indexes and such, which will make future projects easier. But will we go with DynamoDB again?


Let’s put it this way: There’s no cut and dry answer. Every project is different. The decisions for this project were based on the client’s needs and requirements. If they were even slightly different, we could have ended up with a completely different implementation, possibly even a relational database. So I can’t say unequivocally, “DynamoDB is better than MongoDB.” But it proved to be a better fit for this project, and although it wasn’t without headaches, the end result was excellent.

Friday, July 20, 2012

A/N I always love torturing Sasuke and making him have to fight for Naruto (; TIS FUN BECAUSE NARUTO WAS ALWAYS FIGHTING FOR HIM! HOW DOES IT FEEL NOW SASUKE? HOW DOES IT FUCKING FEEL NOW! Ehem Excuse my outburst and enjoy

A/N: I always love torturing Sasuke and making him have to fight for Naruto (; TIS FUN BECAUSE NARUTO WAS ALWAYS FIGHTING FOR HIM! HOW DOES IT FEEL NOW, SASUKE? HOW DOES IT FUCKING FEEL NOW! Ehem. Excuse my outburst and enjoy.


Warning: I don't even know. Very short. But I hope you enjoy c:


Resurfaced


Chapter One: The Start Of It All


“Come back to me…” he whispered.


“… I can’t.” was his reply.


“Why can’t you!” he screamed out, grabbing hard onto the soft fabric of his shirt.


“Because,” the raven began, “my goal… it isn’t complete, yet.”


“You don’t need revenge to be happy!” the blonde cried. He was desperately trying to cling on to the only person he had left. “Don’t I make you happy?”


“That’s not the point… I have to do this.”


“No you don’t!” he choked out.


“Naruto-” he was cut off when he felt the blonde’s lips touch his. They shared a passionate kiss that was broken when the raven pushed him away.


“Sasuke…” he said softly, but the raven turned his back on the blonde. “Sasuke don’t go!” the raven kept on walking, “Please don’t!” he tried to run after him, but he tripped and fell hard on his face. Sasuke turned around, fighting the urge to pick the blonde up and wipe the dirt that was caked on his face.


The blonde looked truly pitiful. Snot and tears were running down his face, and the dirt was just adding on to his look of complete devastation.


“Sasuke I swear if you leave… I’ll hate you!”


Sasuke gave the blonde a sad smile, “Then hate me.” The raven disappeared into the night.


+Five Years Later+


man

The blonde rubbed the sleep out of his eyes. The rays of sunlight that seeped through his window weren’t giving him a chance to sleep. He yawned, ‘what was that dream just now…? It seemed so familiar.’ Naruto couldn’t remember what happened much over the past couple of years. Just bits and pieces were truly clear to him, the rest just seemed like he pretty much blocked out everything from that time. Why… he had no idea.


Naruto yawned and glared at the alarm clock that decided it was okay to blast its annoying chime. Sure it was cute, being green and frog shaped, but it was still annoying for the blonde to have to wake up to it every morning.


“Ugh! Damn alarm clock, shut up!” he threw his pillow at the frog shaped alarm clock, knocking it off the table. With a content smile, he pulled the covers over his body and closed his eyes, slowly drifting off to sleep. The moment he felt his self-drifting, he heard his door open, then slam, followed by loud stomping going on in his room.


“Naruto!” the intruder screamed, ripping the covers off the boy’s body. “Get off your lazy ass. We’re late!”


Naruto threw a pillow at the intruder. “Sakura shut up! I’ll wake up when I feel like it.”


Naruto’s act of rebellion made the pink haired ninja even angrier. “What was that, Naruto?”


“You heard me! I said I’d get up when I want to. Now let me sleep!”


Sakura was getting angrier by the minute. They were supposed to meet Kakashi and Kiba at the village gate for their next mission but Naruto refused to get up. Feeling her anger rising she grabbed Naruto by the foot and yanked him off the bed, causing the blonde to hit his head.


“Ouch!” he screamed rubbing his abused head. “Bitch, what do you think you’re doing!”?


“I think I’m waking up my lazy teammate!” she retorted as she stomped her way to the door. “Now get dressed; I’m not waiting for you any longer! If I get in trouble with Sensei because of your stupidity, I’ll kill you!” she slammed the door hard, causing some things from the selves to fall of the wall.


Naruto groaned, “Damn it, I swear she’s PMSing.” he said to himself. Getting up from the floor, he lazily walked to the bathroom and took a quick shower. After that he rushed to put on his ninja gear for the mission.


Grabbing his bento, he rushed downstairs, but not before stopping to admire the rose he kept on his dresser. Where it came from, he had no idea. It had just been there for a while and he never had the heart to throw it out, since it didn’t seem like it was going to die anytime soon. So, he just decided to keep it. After a couple more minutes of admiring, he ran out the door of his apartment.


Running through the streets of Konoha he resisted the urge to stop by his favorite restaurant Ichiraku Ramen. But he knew if he wasted anymore time Sakura would have his ass… literally. The only way he could make past the restaurant was by closing his eyes and pinching the bridge of his noise while running full speed past the place.


Finally, he arrived at the front gate and was greeted by pissed off teammates.


“Finally, Naruto, I thought you got lost!” A less than happy Kiba said.


“Oh he wasn’t lost. He was sleeping in.” Sakura growled.


“Now, now, guys. We’re all here, right? No need to bicker.” Kakashi said, doing his best to calm the rest of the group even though he could really care less if they ripped out each other’s throats. What he really wanted to do was look at the lewd photos he took of his lover the night before. They were finally printed and ready for use! However, he didn’t want to have to deal with troublesome things like explaining to Tsunade why his team killed each other.


“Yeah, what Kakashi said!” Naruto let out a smirk and folded his arms across his chest. “I’m here so let’s just start this mission already.” Naruto turned to Kakashi, “So what’s the mission for today? Baa-chan never told us!”


“Well, we’re actually going to a nearby village to pick up a secret ingredient. It’s for some medicine or something. Its effects are really powerful, so says the Hokage.”


“It sounds simple enough.” Sakura twirled one of her pink bangs. “Why do we need so many people though? If it‘s just for that, then the extra man power isn‘t needed.”


“Excellent observation, Sakura. Rumor has it that rogue ninjas guard the ingredient very highly. It’s going to take more than one ninja to get in through their defenses.”


“Well then… this sounds dangerous.” Sakura let out a sigh. She was hoping the mission would have been easier so that it ended earlier. She had so many things to do today, but sadly fate just wasn’t on her side.


Naruto smirked, loving the sudden thrill that surged through him at the thought of engaging in a dangerous mission, “Makes it all the more fun! Let’s go!”


+Far away…+


“Look at him. He’s grown so much over the past five years. Much more cuter.” the man said with a lick of his lips. “Don’t you think, Sasuke?”


Sasuke remained indifferent on the outside. “I don’t really care.”


The man stared at the raven in disbelief. “Now that can’t be true. I know how you really feel Sasuke. You wish desperately to hold on to his thin waist. To smell the fragrance from his long, blonde curls. To make love with him.” he wanted to see a reaction from the stoic raven, just so he could toy and tease with his emotions. No matter how much the raven tried to hide it, he knew deep down how he really felt.


“I would have to disagree.”


The man smirked. “Be that way Sasuke, but you can’t lie to yourself.”


Sasuke didn’t say anything. But his gaze didn’t falter from the blonde that was currently chatting happily to his canine friend. He wondered what the blonde would say if he ever saw him again. Sasuke still remembered the night he left. How could he not? He was so close to leaving, and then Naruto came and did that and almost convinced him to stay. Almost, of course.


The man was right though. Over the five years Naruto had changed considerably, his hair brushed his shoulders, he was much taller, and his face was much more detailed; with his whiskers becoming more sharp and noticeable. Sasuke wished that he could have stayed to watch the blonde grow up.


But that couldn’t happen… because of his mistake.


His mistake… on leaving and letting the blonde grow to hate him.


And now their paths would cross soon, and all that would be left was hate.


Sasuke didn’t know if he could handle it, but he couldn’t back out now. Orochimaru wanted the herb before the Leaf Village could get it. If he failed… Sasuke didn’t even want to think about it. He turned to his partner Kabuto.


“Are you just going to stand and stare, or are you going to move?”


“Don’t be so pushy. We’re going.” Kabuto disappeared into the treetops moving swiftly as to not be noticed. Sasuke stayed a few minutes. His mouth was moving, saying incoherent words to no one but himself for that was the only person who would listen. With speed that could put lightning to shame he disappeared into the trees as well.


Tags: fanfiction. resurfaced. sasunaru


Mood: amused


Music: ADTR <3

Friday, July 13, 2012

Our Kickstarter is LIVE! Click to learn more!

Our Kickstarter is LIVE! Click to learn more!


June 19, 2014


Pixie Trix Comix now has a twitter account. Follow us there for news & updates!--Gisele :)


December 17, 2013


Some of you may have noticed that our Monday updates tend be late. It seems to work out best for us to change Monday's update to Tuesday. So be sure to come back every Tuesday & Friday for the buns!--Gisele :)


September 8, 2013


I was interviewed this week on the Where Monsters Dwell radio show. You can listen to it here. The interview starts midway in the show, after a French song. For those interested, the French song played is from the girl band I was in in the early '90s (I was the bass player.) This was a cover of an old Brigitte Bardot song that we totally tweaked and made it our own. Just listen to the original to see how much we changed it lol--Gisele :)


Did a podcast interview this week. Was fun! Talked about various comics I'm involved with. You can check it out here. My headset mic wasn't the best but the host, Jonathan, did his best to remove any unwanted noises (great job, Jonathan!) Also, enjoy as I gradually lose my voice through the interview as I forgot to have a glass of water nearby! lol --Gisele :)


January 13, 2012


To those who remember the gender-swap #636 issue I drew over the Summer featuring a famous little red head, the variant cover is now available as a poster. It's securely shipped in a tube and is of high quality. Available here while supplies last.--Gisele :)


January 7, 2012


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Welcome to Sticky Dilly Buns, a new comic starring Dillon from Ma3. The cast will also feature other familiar faces, such as Amber & Chanelle. New characters will gradually be introduced to complete the cast. A prior knowledge of Ma3 is not required, though. If you're wondering who "Dahling!" is in the top nav for creator credits, well, that's a little collective name comprised of Shouri and me. Shouri has been helping me on Eerie Cuties for a long time now. We both loved Dillon and wanted to see more of him. Since it was difficult to do that with Ma3, we started planning this new comic, just for him. Shouri will be helping me with inking, pencil assists, plotting, and more. We hope you'll bookmark the comic, and check it out every Monday and Friday.--Gisele =)

Monday, July 9, 2012

Bienvenue dans la mangathèque du site

Bienvenue dans la mangathèque du site


Vous êtes dans la rubrique "Mangathèque" du site Fleurs de Sakura Manga où vous trouverez entres autres toute ma collection de goodies issus de mangas et animés.


Ici, je vous propose de découvrir des séries mangas, plus ou moins anciennes, en vous donnant mon avis personnel.


N&#8217;hésitez pas à regarder le sommaire pour voir la liste de tous les articles mangas. Vous pouvez aussi utiliser le moteur de recherche ou faire une recherche multi-critères (par genres, éditeurs et mangaka).


Les résumés des séries figurant sur les fiches Manga sont issus du site Manga-News ou des éditeurs (4e de couverture).


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Je suis désolée mais j&#8217;ai dû désactiver les commentaires car j&#8217;ai reçu des spams sur quelques articles.


Vous pouvez me suivre sur Facebook sur lequel je partage ma passion pour les mangas !


Bonne découverte !


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Wednesday, July 4, 2012

DAMOENATION The Moe Takeover

DA-MOE-NATION: The Moe Takeover


Moe is not just about the anime industry . It&#8217;s a cultural phenomenon that might be the most difficult term I have ever had the privilege of attempting to define for a mass audience. Ph.D candidates have written 15 page long essays on the sole topic of what moe is. According to one Ph.D candidate, “Moeru (nominalized as moe ) is a simple Japanese verb meaning &#8216;to bud or sprout,&#8217; and is homophonous with the verb &#8216;to burn.&#8217; In the 1990&#8217;s the word moe appeared on a now famous bulletin board website 2Chan in a discussion of young, cute, innocent anime girls and a &#8216;burning passion&#8217; for them.” However, moe can actually be used to describe more than just young girls.


The moe market in Japan is enormous . It encompasses practically anything cute and two dimensional that caters to gender-based emotional and psychological needs. Men who feel that it is impossible for them to express their stereotypically &#8216;feminine&#8217; needs and women who have repressed masculinity both reach out to different types of moe for comfort. It is important to acknowledge that anything moe is fantasy. A moe character in a story would almost always be characterized as &#8216;flat&#8217; (if you remember your high school literary terms). Though the moe girl is dependent, simple, loving, and evokes feelings of nurturing, it would be impossible to imagine her in reality. The general charm of such a moe character can be a nostalgia for ones own (idealized) childhood or the warm feelings of pure, clean love that their innocence ignites, or even parent-like affection. But there can also be a darker, perverted side to this love.


Though female moe characters in anime (Mio – K-On. Konata &#8211; Lucky Star, Chobits &#8211; Chi) are inherently incapable of sensing sexual tension, avid fans soon realized that they could make doujinshi (fan manga) where such was not the case. Soon enough a new industry, lolicon, was created where the perverted fantasies of older men craving young girls could be realized.


Moe remains a separate entity, but can easily cross the line depending on the circumstances. Still, what men really crave about the female moe is the sincere affection and love that these anime girls are capable of, not the sexual release they may provide on the side when their innocence is compromised.


Female-targeting moe can usually be found in yaoi . where women can live out their sexual fantasies where prescribed androgynous character types pursue one another in very forthcoming ways. The female reader can project herself onto the usually very feminine uke (bottom) and proceed to be banged by the highly masculine seme (top).


The very physical and sexual nature of yaoi appeals to the repressed masculinity in women, though the reader is very aware that it is not something they would actually want in real life. Just like male moe fans know their characters cannot exist in reality, so women understand that the &#8216;moe&#8217; situations in yaoi can live only in fantasy, and would not be so pleasant if acted out in real life.


Though generally yaoi and male moe characters are not always acknowledged as being moe, even female moe alone is already very pervasive trend in the Japanese anime, gaming, and manga industries. Female moe characters are popular enough that there has even been an anime, “Welcome to the NHK” about the culture of moe-obsessed male otaku.


(CAUTION SPOILERS AHEAD on Welcome to NHK)


The main character, Sato, is afraid to leave his apartment plastered with inappropriate anime girl posters and beer, but when a very moe-esque girl appears one day on his doorstep and tells him she can &#8216;save him,&#8217; he decides to make a visual novel game with his nieghbor to convince her that he is actually a succesful designer, not a pathetic loser.


Love, or lack thereof in Sato&#8217;s life is an essential element to explaining his (and his neighbors) obsession with moe . Every time they manage to get a date they temporarily forget about their favorite moe characters, but the second a relationship is shattered all their old habits return. At one point in the anime Sato&#8217;s neighbor explains that a female moe character is receptive, sensitive, has no ulterior motives, and is at her heart only interested in the well being of others, and that therefore they cannot exist in reality. And that is why so many men fall in love with them.


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The preoccupation with moe in Japanese culture has motivated companies to produce more and more moe-heavy anime and other products like games, toys, t-shirts, etc . The New York Times even published an article about men who are in serious relationships with their favorite moe character. Printed on a body pillow. Naturally the anime market has only seen a rise in sales, taking advantage of the Japanese weakness for moe. According to Anime News Network, the moe market is worth 88 BILLION yen . So long as the weakness prevails, so there will be a continual increase in moe-heavy anime. This doesn&#8217;t mean that one genre of anime will rise above the others, because moe spans genre. After all, if Neon Genesis Evangelion and Chobits were the same genre the world would have to implode. Only those anime who take moe to the furthest extreme are necessarily all rainbows and bunny rabbits (think Moetan or Futago Hime). Such anime are  rarely ever liscensed in America, and are unlikely to even be noticed by casual American Anime fans. Only the more (dare I say it?) obsessed of us are observing the increase in production of moe anime from Japan.


However, it seems that this &#8216;moe boom&#8217; might be coming to a close . The number of new moe shows has been cut in half since last year, so it seems the sunrise is before us. For one, the number of female viewers is rising and with that the female moe character becoming less desirable (since it was created mainly to charm the male viewer). It seems even the guys were getting a little sick of the fluff, as enticing in its innocence as it may be. The mature anime audience has clearly awoken and wants it gritty three dimensional characters back. I have to say, I am pretty happy about this, but I think that there is a lot to learn from the moe boom, both about Japanese culture and the human psyche. As much as I don&#8217;t personally like moe, I don&#8217;t want the pendulum to swing too far in the other direction. Moe, kawaii, and humorous anime do a good job in balancing out those incredibly depressing titles that the anime industry is equally capable of. We certainly don&#8217;t want them to go away completely. Balance, balance is always good.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

You can hear every once in a while that girlfags are not &quot;allowed&quot; to use the word fag Because &quot;fag&quot; is a slur and only gay men are (should?) be allowed to reclaim/reappropriate it

You can hear every once in a while that girlfags are not "allowed" to use the word fag. Because "fag" is a slur and only gay men are (should?) be allowed to reclaim/reappropriate it.


Def. Reappropriation is the cultural process by which a group reclaims—re-appropriates—terms or artifacts that were previously used in a way disparaging of that group.For example, since the early 1970s, much terminology referring to homosexuality—such as gay and (to a lesser extent) queer and poof —has been reappropriated.


Of course it&#39;s true that "fag" IS slur - especially for effeminate or flamboyant gay men. But this includes somehow that effeminate or flamboyant men can&#39;t be proud about this. But they can. They reclaimed the word and can proudly call themselves fag.


But are girlfags allowed to do so, too?


The term "girlfag" was coined in the 1980s. It&#39;s not popular among all gfgd - out of the obvious reasons. But it&#39;s established now and it gave a group of people, who had no name so far, the possibility to talk about themselves.


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And: Girlfags identify with the LGBTQ-culture. You can&#39;t deny them their queerness. So they are part of that marginalised group - and under a certain light this gives them also the right to use the slang.


Oh and by the way: I never heard anyone complain over the use of "fag hag". Seems like the term "fag hag" is completely acceptable - although it contains "fag".


Immer wieder hört man, besonders Girlfags hätten nicht das Recht, das Wort "fag" (engl. für "Schwuchtel") zu verwenden. Dies sei eine Beleidigung und es könne nur von Angehörigen der jeweiligen Gruppe als "Geusenwort" verwendet werden.


Def: "Als Geusenwörter (aus dem Niederländischen: geuzennaam) oder Trotzwörter werden in der Linguistik Wörter bezeichnet, die ursprünglich eine Personengruppe beschimpfen sollten, von dieser aber positiv umgemünzt werden"


Natürlich stimmt es: "fag" war - und ist meist noch immer - eine Beleidigung gegenüber schwulen Männern. Dennoch wird dieses Wort inzwischen von eben jener - damit beschimpften - Gruppe übernommen und wird zum Teil mit Stolz als Selbstbezeichnung verwendet.


Haben nun Girlfags das Recht, dies auch zu tun?


Dazu kann man nur sagen: Das Wort "Girlfag" wurde bereits in den 1980er Jahren geprägt und hat sich seither verbreitet. Es ist auch unter gfgd nicht umstritten - aus den genannten Gründen - aber es hat sich in gewisser Weise durchgesetzt und bietet einer bisher namenlosen Gruppe die Möglichkeit zur Selbstbezeichnung.


Girlfags identifizieren sich zudem auch mit der LGBTQ-Szene. Was man ihnen nicht abstreiten kann ist ihre Queerness - und somit sind sie Teil dieser marginalisierten gesellschaftlichen Gruppe, was ihnen in gewisser Weise auch wieder das Recht einräumt, den Slang dieser Gruppe zu verwenden.


Ach und übrigens - ich habe noch nie gehört, dass sich jemand über das Wort "fag hag" beschwert hätte. "fag" ist in diesem Zusammenhang offenbar vollkommen akzeptabel.


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