Sorry guys life threw me a mixed bag of really good and really shitty in the past bit

Sorry, guys, life threw me a mixed bag of really good and really shitty in the past bit.

I just had my 8th anniversary of my disability in June and it threw me in a funk. BUT, the saving grace was it happened to be a Monday and that meant I had bellydance class. SharQui's been a HUGE part of my life for over 4 years now, so even though I was feeling crappy, I went to class. I * knew * I would love it while I was there so I hauled up and off I went. Sure I wasn't great (and my turns were especially awful ^^;;;) but I had a fabulous time like I always did. It's really been the major happiness in my life and no matter how bad I feel, SharQui always manages to clear my head and make me smile.

After that, something that's been building for the past few years finally hit a boiling point. Someone who I'd always thought to be one of my two very best friends has been on a weird downward spiral. It'd made for insane headaches, lots of upset, and the loss of a bunch of people I thought where some of my close friends.

All that crap aside, I'm trying to stay busy between SharQui and volunteering at the SPCA. It's kitten-season and we intake from other counties with high-kill rates to save as many as we can. So the more kitties we can get into homes where they'll be properly spoiled and loved, the more we can save from having their lives cut unnecessarily short. Plus, I got certified to go to the hospital and visit the kitties in there who need love while they're waiting for all their medical stuff to be cleared; enough weight gained to be altered; or space to open up for them.

So I apologize for the utter silence coming from my end of things. It's really hard to realize that these relationships I thought were so strong and solid were just empty houses built on sand. I still have genuine friends who've been amazing with helping me through. But it's still been a really crappy run of events and endings I never suspected, and I'm getting my feet back under me.

Thanks for being patient and supportive of what I write up. I'll do my best getting up something new for you soon.

♥

Ookami-chan

Mood: drained